11.17.2009
This has been a very hard year for me. I felt so down and out - nothing was working out for me. When I was feeling the most confused a good friend of mine, Theresa, told me about a song called "Lover, You Should've Come Over" by Jeff Buckley. I had heard his name before because I'm a big Chris Cornell fan and I knew that he wrote his song "Wave Goodbye" about Jeff. I'd never bothered to check him out before but I did this time and the song above - "Grace" - hit me like a ton of bricks. I cried hysterically every time I listened to it. The words, the melody, the music.. but mostly his voice was perfect. I cried for how the music touched me but I also cried because it saddened me to find out that he died in 1997. Such a tragedy.
It's weird because listening to his music is very much like a religious experience to me. He's a kind of prophet and I don't pray to him or anything but I gain comfort and understanding through his music. I honestly don't know what I would have done without his music this year. It's strange how he came to me just when I needed him. I've learned how important it is to keep connection between us and the people who have passed on.
His words feel like mine. He vocalized how I feel inside with his voice and music. I don't feel so alone so I become inspired. Words flow, images appear - I fall into peace. I feel like I understand more than I should about life, its purpose - the possibilities. I have faith that things happen like they are supposed to. The fight is always worth it if your intentions are pure and full of love. Love is pain and joy and LIFE. Happiness isn't wealth or possessions - it's the small moments and the memories we leave behind.
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